OKAY, SO.
I HAVE TRIED THIS. I’VE GIVEN IT ANOTHER SHOT…
AND I STILL HAVEN’T SEEN THESE DAMN TROLLS.
I READ GODDAMN GIBBERISH FOR PAGES AND NOTHING.
NADA.
I GIVE UP. NO MORE. D8<
April 2011
Sooo...
Yeah…
I’ve finally made the descision to yoink Void from Teacups completely. :/
I can’t keep up with the Twitter anymore, half the time I don’t even know what the fuck is going on, and recently, there’s been so much stress and anger going around Twitter that I just don’t want it anymore!
So sorry, guys, but I quit.
Confiteor Deo Omnipotenti
Beatae Mariae semper Virgini
Beato Michaeli archangelo
Sanctis apostolis omnibus sanctis
Et tibit Pater
Quia peccavi nimis
Cogitatione
Verbo et opere
Mea culpa
Mea maxima culpa
Kyrie Eleison
(10,000 points if you know what Disney song this is from. ;D)
This is a personal thing...
TL;DR PERSONAL RAMBLINGS AHEAD. (If you’re not comfortable reading about sex, don’t read this.)
I’ve been thinking… A lot lately and…
I’ve come to the realization that I’m pretty sure I’m asexual.
My friends and I were having a conversation at lunch today and the topic of sex was brought up… And I mentioned that I’ve never masturbated before and my friends looked at me like I had three heads. Yes, I know, kind of a dirty topic to talk about… But it’s what we do. We’re teenagers, sex is supposed to be on our minds constantly…
Only… With me, it’s not. Honestly, I find the thought of myself having sex with someone else… Repulsive. It kind of disgusts me.
I have no “sex drive”, I’ve never done anything past making out… And even when I was making out with past girlfriends or boyfriends… It never gave me that “warm fuzzy feeling” that it’s supposed to give someone.
I’m a teenager, I’m supposed to think about sex a lot, right?
Well I’m not.
At first, I thought maybe something was wrong with me.
Thinking “Why aren’t I sexually attracted to ANYONE…? Yes, I think people are cute… But…”
And when I thought that, I thought I wasn’t normal. I’ve gone through these past few years calling myself a bisexual, liking both sexes, but now I’ve come to realize… That I kind of don’t even care. Boy, Girl, Transgender… I don’t find myself sexually attracted to them at all.
I realize now that nothing was wrong with me. I’m just different. Something I’ve always been throughout my whole life. I’ve had “little kid crushes” on people, liking them as maybe a friend I can hug and be comfortable around, but… When it comes to affection, I can show it, and don’t get me wrong, I like showing affection… Just not through sex. Hand holding, kissing, etc. I’m fine with. But sex… I don’t find it all that appealing. Maybe I’m just confused, but I’ve realized I’ve been like this for a while the more I look back on myself over the years. And now, I’m completely okay with that.
After sitting here, introspectively analyzing myself with the skills I’ve learned in my Psychology class, I’ve come to the full realization that I am asexual, I’m in that one category that sex is the lowest thing on my list… As Wikipedia says, I have no desire for sex or sexual actions with another person. I have no interest in it, no need or want for it.
And now, after having the friends I do and carefully considering this, I know they’ll accept me for who I am no matter what.
So, consider this my “coming out of the closet” as an asexual.
It feels pretty good fantastic to finally get this off my chest.
suddenly:
holy shit you guys. my art is so classy at 6 am.
time for bedThis is just beautiful.
forever canon
LMAO
Sorry, these are just too fun to NOT post...
“… Wow… I’ve… never done something like that before…”
“Your body is so warm.”
“I… I have never done it for so long before…”
“I thought… I thought that I would lose myself inside you.”
“I thought it would feel wonderful to become one with you.”
“You did…? Being that close to you felt fantastic… Strange, but fantastic… I’ve never been so close to another being in my entire life.”
“Well… Did it still feel wonderful?”
“Yes.”
…
again,
bold = Void
regular = Kid
This time, though… It’s a bit more… Risqué than the last ones. xD This time, thy did kind of have their equivalent of “sex.” |D;;;
... I have nothing to say for myself.
“Shh. Just… Come to bed with me.”
”Will you allow me to lie beside you again?”
“I wouldn’t have it any other way.”
“Hehaha. Come. Things will be a little different this time.”
“All right. What are we going to do…?”
“Hehe… That feels weird. In a good way, though… I like it.”
“Good. I will only touch you to please you. This is different, though, is it not? Usually you are beneath me.”
“It feels good. It /is/ different, but I don’t mind being on top of you… You’re comfortable.”
“Our positions are reversed and I am bigger than usual, but the feeling is the same.”
“… Void… Do you trust me?”
“Of course I do, Kid…”
“We’ve been… Laying here doing this for a while…”
…
“Wait… My body is very… Hot, I don’t want to hurt you, Kid…”
“Are you sure you’ll be okay if you touch me like this…?”
“I want to touch you. Explore you, you may do the same with me.”
“All right… As long as you promise I won’t hurt you…”
bold = my character Void
regular = D’s character Kid
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